Drs. Appt Yesterday
Carol went with Wanda to the doctors yesterday for a checkup. Baby is doing as well as we can tell and Carol is dialated just a little. This is great news and we are on our way to having Kennedy in our arms.
The doctor wasnt so kind when she talked about how to stop the production of milk and things like that, but they are just so clinical they dont seem to have a heart. We are going to do what we need to do for Kennedy when she comes out.
Most T18 infants have trouble latching on or breatfeeding at all that we will probably need to use a pump, but the point remains - Kennedy will need to eat something. We hope she will need to eat a lot, but we will hope for a little.
I am reading the Ender Wiggin Series of books and one of the main characters in "The Shadow of the Giant" is named Bean. He was small at birth and had a genetic trait that changed him for life and will ultimately cause an untimely death. He was so small at birth and now he has passed that trait onto his children which he is needing to collect.
The similarities are surprising but Bean lived and was very smart. Very smart and he looked mostly normal most of his life.
I keep thinking of when I golf with Kristin how Kennedy will most likely not have the opportunity to do the same thing. The I think how we will be able to bring Kennedy along and she will certainly gain some enjoyment out of seeing her sister playing a sport.
But unfortunately I realize that the chances of me holding her alive are so slim that her being 5 and watching her 9 year old sister golf just isnt possible. It just wont happen I am afraid.
The realization has started to hit me that Kennedy is coming that she is something special that I will need to deal with in my family's life. Just making it through the birth and praying for a cry is so hard to imagine. I cant allow myself to think that she will come out and look at me like Kristin did.
So it looks like the end of October is reasonable to expect the birth of our second child.
9/16/2005 3:16:30 PM